Opportunity

I may have something close to a job offer today. I lady I know from high school is a supervisor at our local bank and she needs someone to fill a retirement spot.

I don't know what to do.

The pay is not going to be as much as I currently make, and the benefits are not nearly as good as I have now. However, there is a good chance that I could get a promotion within a couple of years and be salary. In order to do so, I would have to move, probably about two hours away from here.

I don't know what to do.

I would really like to get out of my current job. There is little or no room for advancement, the very viability of the plant is in deep question. The retirement benefits are not good, just a 401K and IRA. The pay is not good, either. On the plus side, I have eighteen years seniority, nearly five weeks vacation and I don't have to drive to work.

But I still don't know what to do.

If I don't take this job and it turns out I should have, I will feel like a hypocrite for complaining about my current job and not doing anything. If I do take the job and end up regretting it, I won't be able to get back to my current one.

I think I will talk to my plant manager and ask him what he thinks; that is, is there any reason to think that I will be able to advance at all. I know he will probably not be totally honest with me, but I want to get a feel for what he says anyway. It sounds like they will hire for the other job in about two weeks or less, so that doesn't give me a whole lot of time.

I wonder if the only way I will ever get anywhere is to just take a big risk and quit. I am not much of a risk taker, but maybe I need to start. I just don't know. I have no real ties to my home town anymore, not with my mom gone.

God I hate decisions. Worse yet, I hate the implication that I can't make decisions and that I really don't know what the hell I want. That is a very scary thought. How can you ever get what you want if you don't know what it is?

Oh, Lord.